glitz and glamour

2010!

2010-05-04T20:57:00.003+08:00

wow 2010's evidently been reaaallly busy cause i am only posting NOW, which is already MAY.

4 Months have flown past and it's all too fast.

i never realised how little time is left till now.

i never realised how much more there is to do.

i never realised how the past 4 months havent exactly been the most fulfilling months of this year.

a new environment,

a whole new experience.

a new year,

a brand new goal.

so many events have taken place that it hurts my brains to try and recollect what has happened so far.

ahhh well,

let's just focus on moving ahead.

so much more to do, so little time.

what do I do now?

christmas

2009-12-25T00:20:00.004+08:00

HEY EVERYONE!

HARK THE HERALD ANGELS SING!

GLORY TO THE NEW BORN KING!

HAVE YOURSELF A BLESSED MERRY CHRISTMAS:D

LOTS OF LOVE! ♥

recent happenings!

2009-12-14T22:46:00.007+08:00

okay let's see.....

oh! C and i did work last week:D

boy does time fly so freaking fast!

it wasnt bad. no doubt repetitive and a bit monotonous, but still still.

good experience! i found out something about C, so THAT's interesting! haha!

oh and!

we had our cca prep the other day. well, last week also.

we did like 490 over cranes!

well above our original target of 480(:

see we arent only EFFICIENT, but also PRODUCTIVE!

the banner peeps also finished the banner!

all choir girls are E.P.People.

so everything's done, gotta put the banner and posters up soon!

my sample cranes and home prep!

OH!!!

and to end off the week nicely

SOP2 GATHERING PARTY!:D

it was really AWESOME and ABSOLUTELY FANTABULOUS!

had lots of fun.

doing random stuff

saying random stuff

having random conversations about(just keywords for your discretion) barney homo HIV sesame street together starawards new moon twilight paranomal activity.....

goodness knows what else. i can't remember.

oh the joys!

took random photos. aka camwhored alot! as usual. typical sop2s! (:

still havent watched my movie yet.

sigh.. will do soon!:D

did fun stuff today. or at least stuff that i like and makes me happy(:

ever since last monday i think ive been occupied almost EVERYDAY but it seems like so much has happened that last monday's events seem so so far away. amazingly weird.

btw i think this hot pinkish purple colour i see when i look down is lovely!:D

night!

a while later

2009-11-29T16:07:00.002+08:00

its been a while since i last posted anything. haha.

its funny why i stopped coming. probably lost interest in this.

but why am i here today? because bing indirectly inspired this. HAHA.

i'm being nice to put it that way:D hehe...

well the year has come to an end, almost.

just came back and tired...

thats imaginable, what we did.

it was enjoyable but its good to be home!

miss the food, spicy and not so salty and oily.

didnt buy lotsa souvenirs. nothing much to offer in terms of that.

unless i buy fakos...

hahaha!

ahh well

i have to catch up on alot of stuff!

homework, presents,watching my new shows,blah blah

yipppeee!

btw, im suddenly so inspired by coco before chanel(: LOVE the élégance

le mademoiselle l'adore!

au revoir

SEC3CAMP09

2009-05-10T17:44:00.003+08:00

just came back from camp on friday!

it was great:D

funfunfun!!

campfire was awesome

HAHA...

facils were quite nice as the camp progressed.

ooh LOVE OUR CLASS ITEM!!!

3HOPE ROCKS YOUR BLOODY SOCKS MAN!

well but sadly,

we are back to school!

i dunno why but im feelin dread and like worry and anxiety..

goodness knows why but its damn irritating.

i just wish everything would stop and that i can relax.

i am very exhausted from all that goes on in that brain of mine.

HOW CAN ANYONE STAND HAVING SO MANY THOUGHTS?

BLOODY DISTURBING!

AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!

SYF 09

2009-04-26T10:58:00.005+08:00

OMG WE DID IT!

GWH!

SNCHOIR!

THE LOVE<3

sorry for such a late post.

but its never too late

cos WE ARE STILL THE ABSOLUTE LOVE!!

now we shant slack.

we shall welcome the secones

work hard together!(:

hanging in there

2009-04-10T14:49:00.003+08:00

its been ages since ive been here, but ahh wells.

BUSY BUSY BUSY

have lots of things to do this term..

9 MORE DAYS PEOPLE!

ALL THE WAY SNCHOIR!

just keep going all the way with her.

it'll be worth it if only we will.

and

we CAN!

now back to studying my 70 pages of geog.

ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT.

ahem.

2009-03-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

i am so tired.

you think i am not enjoying myself there.

in fact i am

but not totally

why?

because i have something others dont.

i have a fear

a nagging fear that is becoming part of the growing excess baggage in my heart.

the baggage just keeps increasing.

i dont know how to get rid of it.

people can do whatever they want.

but i cant.

why?

what's wrong?

i know there are others worse off.

but if this is already shit,

i have simply no idea how the rest cope.

i know i'm not what you wished for.

but i'm not what i wished for either.

i am so so damn bloody tired.

i wish i was frozen in time.

forever 7, or 10.

this is

i dont know..

SHIT ME.

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2009-03-07T23:23:00.001+08:00

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2009-02-13T23:30:00.002+08:00

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covenant ritual

2009-02-08T19:47:00.004+08:00

today i slacked alot.

like now.

i seriously have to rethink my priorities

but nevermind,

since im here,

might as well....

today was covt. rit.!!!

haha it was not bad

quite symbolic..

it thought it was meaningful.

well i learnt alot of stuff today

as in i discovered some stuff.

wow....

its,

indescibable

i feel like

oh gosh

i cant explain!

argh

anyways

school is okay so far..

fun!

haha...

gotta do more studying though.

i cant believe myself for being so

complacent?

and

relaxed?

argh...

lots of impt events coming up for me..

i cant afford to...

oh no...

shoots.

the stress is kickin in now as im typing...

okay i better go off.

btw

i just got a good deal on something i love!

i am so SO glad.

YOU CANT IMAGINE.

but this joy is shortlived.

as i am reminded of what im supposed to accomplish and achieve for this month..

ARRRGGH!!!!

2009-01-30T19:47:00.003+08:00

i had such a filling YUMMY dinner!

haha

anyways...

i saw this REALLY HUGE BIRD!

it was flying with its wings wide-spread out....

it was white...

the wings had black like at the tips...

SO DAMN COOL!

and you know what somebody said?

ME: wow! look at that bird! omg its so big! so nice!

X: what.... so suaku, never see bird before ah?

thanks.

really.

ahh wells

off to study!

wish me luck

I MUST

I WILL

I CAN!

whoo hoo!!!!

LOTSALOVE!<3

2009-01-23T18:47:00.002+08:00

"this is the story of a girl

who cried a river and drowned the whole world

while she looks so sad in photographs

i absolutely love her smile"

2009-01-22T22:27:00.003+08:00

i'm sorry to anybody ive upsetted in any way.

i am not in a right frame of mind today and i am very emotionally unstable today so yeah...

sorry if i snapped at anyone.

i must say thank you to meredith!

for being so thoughtful and sweet

miss all of them loads!!!!

must take lots of pictures tomoro!

loves!

2009-01-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

okay

i know i said i wont be here so often

but here's a quickie

i must thank sara for doing me the favour today!

haha!

and of course its amanda's bday so happy birthday!

and ooh!!! tomoro is auditions!

YAY!

okay im tired.

shall go sleep now!

CCA FAIR and Olevel dreams!

2009-01-10T14:26:00.006+08:00

hello!

cca fair was fun!

haha did alot of crazy things with the greens and subway!

i think the sign up rate is not too bad!

so yay!

AND!!!

GUESS WHAT?!!?

MARIA, ERINA AND JERLYN CAME BACK!

WHOO HOO!!!!!

oh goodness

miss them like hell!

although maria came later and was walkin around,

erina and jerlyn sang with us!

see see! choir spirit! haha:D

and poor mere, she's not well so she couldnt come.

but i am sure she misses us LOADS!

ha!

anyways....

we were okay sometimes.

like it didnt start off well...

but we kept singing kimi after that so it was not too bad.

loads of parents are so interested and they ask lots of questions.

well all of us were weirdly high on saturday.

no idea why!!

we had a talented singer who could PEFORM her #1 hit single in front of a wide circle of audience(including parents!)

and we also have a pop group CVC! *WINKS*

and also a NEW duo!*winks* preparing to make a music video featuring ALL THE HITS!

watch out for that!

one day you will probably see it on YOUTUBE getting a million hits a day:D

haha...

look here!

'SNCHOIR'S GOT TALENT'!'

ANYWAYS

today is OLEVEL RESULTS DAY!

they did well! yay!

our turn is coming!!!

i think i better start workin hard man!

must do as well.

it probably feels SO DAMN GOOD.

i wanna get that feelin too in 2011.

I WANT IT!

haha

in class today...hmmm lessons were okay

still not heavy yet.

english was omg...haha

loaded with crappy stuff we did!

just go online...then do the news report which took marie,sara,karyn and me AGES TO COMPLETE!

simply because we took many jabs at trying to figure out what the pic was until we were sorta saved.

then....AGAIN, it took us a while to get the bloody FIRST sentence to start off...

and then we all sang except sara and omg....

obviously not productive! haha

this class is crazy...

we shall see how crazy it can really get!

haha!

birthdays are here and i am so backdated!

ugh i feel so weighed down.

but not by homework YET(:

i think im gonna start adopting a more positive attitude towards school stuff!

towards learning!

towards all stuff academic related!

goodness!

its the only way im gonna get my straight A1s for Os.

in 2 years time, im gonna read this post again

after getting my results.

and im gonna see if my results justify this post.

we shall wait and see!

I Shant Be Here Too Often From Now Onwards(:

study is the ultimate goal!

WHOO HOO!

i think there's something wrong with me today.

haha

oh and im gonna learn to stop caring so much about that because its gonna drag me down and seriously, like what's the point? its not gonna help me get my dream results. FOCUS!

and....

oh no!

i just rmbed!

wed is chinese compo!

awww!!

i mean

yay.

loves:D

first day of school

2009-01-02T22:30:00.003+08:00

ITS OFFICIALLY THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.

of course there are lots of new stuff..

class, classmates, teachers....

its gonna be a very jam-packed year with tons of activities.

so far its off to a good start.

i hope it will last and that everything will be fine

and that i will be able to achieve what i want.

its 2009.

its a brand new year!

LIVE IT TO THE FULL!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2008-12-31T20:36:00.003+08:00

HEY!

its my 60th post!

haha listened to 987 counting down the top 100 songs of the year.

its so great!

only prob is i missed the bloody top song.

thanks.

anyways

its kinda quiet this year.

but never mind

here's wishing everybody a

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

ITS 2009!

its the start of new things.

im not gonna make stupid resolutions

simply because

i dun believe in breaking them

see you on friday!

may 2009 rock!

let it be a better year man!

LOTSALOVE!

merry christmas

2008-12-24T17:37:00.003+08:00

hello.
i know its kinda early but its okay.
i have to do it now.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

HAVE A WONDERFUL AND BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!

okay ive been doing alot these few days.
haha..
im glad i finished my homework!
its christmas!
yay!
but its gonna be a quiet one this year.
but nvm!

seeya!

REALITY BITES

2008-12-18T23:37:00.005+08:00

okay i shall stop running away from talking bout the trip

although i am not exactly running away either.

but so much happened!

where shall i begin?

hmm i think i shant say everything cos that could take days and years...

besides everyone else would have given their accounts

so i shall do a brief one

the trip was GREAT!

HAHA!

i thought it was rather balanced out.

shopping time, practising time, touring time

we had everything

that is absolutely wonderful.

i wanna thank my lovely roomates for letting me have such a good time!

haha they have been supportive and very very cooperative and FANTASTIC ROOMYS!!!

you should hear all the crazy stuff we did and how we disturbed neighbours. *winks*

and how we got pranked(well not exactly I but SOMEONE! HAHA:D)

obviously you can guess WHO did the sub-standard pranking.

haha! and yeah basically all the other loads of crazy moments

thank you all for making this an extremely memorable trip.

i can say that as a choir we've been through quite a bit.

well as for vienna and bratislava,

beautiful beautiful places!

i loved the palaces,

especially the one we performed in.

FABULOUS!

well and the photographer seemed to like asians.

he took like millions of photos of us and TJC and St Andrew's

HAHA!!

go take a look.( the link is on choir blog)

we've had alot of interesting experiences like shopping together and

finding this cool quaint little italian restaurant!

oh gosh and sipping deliciously sinful hot chocolade!

OOH! haha i will never forget all these things that we did.

its truly unique.

well i just hope that we all have the stamina to continue fighting

we have to fight all the way for next year.

that's where our destination is.

its not the final one for all of us,

but that's where we can gain our

true satisfaction.

okay some pics

   This is the lovely city of Bratislava!

   The ULTIMATE THREE!<3   The 5 of us after competition!:D

   At the pretty lake outside our hotel!

the TWO FAITH GIRLS!

forever the love.......

BACK FROM BRATISLAVA

2008-12-11T15:33:00.002+08:00

SEE CHOIR!

I TOLD YOU WE COULD DO IT.

i will talk more another time!

tata!!

2008-12-01T10:02:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH.

THIS IS IT.

ITS THEE DAY.

I KNOW WE CAN DO IT.

wish us luck!

see you next tuesday!

au revoir!

2008-11-24T19:27:00.004+08:00

the stupid computer.

okay not exactly the com,

its the wireless router

argh

so frustrating

went to try change it today with maria

HAHA

but couldnt

ARGH

cos i didnt call them and all that crap

but nvm,

then we went to get sweet talk

and we walked right past the stupid sweet talk and i asked her

'where's the sweet talk? are u sure its here?'

AND

she was like 'yeah! i saw ppl buying!'

and we turned around at the dead end

and we spotted it.

somewhere in the middle

how stupid are we?

sigh

then we looked at shoes

makeup

and

i bought my present for somebody

she did too!

haha but the lady was so bloody unfriendly

i mean hello!?

we are the ones buying!

so hostile

if not for the shop which is the only shop that sells what i wanna buy

i would have walked out on her

like totally!!

ugh

we were so nice lah

oh then we went into another shop

and maria

was so funny

she said sth so damn bloody funny to the shopkeeper!

gosh i shant say here

ahh wells

bought the stuff i like

felt much happier!

we also LOOKED at stuff i like

haha it was fun

we tried shoes!!! and makeup

of cos makeup on our hands only...

THANKS MARIA!

FOR ACCOMPANYING ME

AND MAKING MY DAY SO FUN!:D

haha.. wells im eating so late.

all becos of the com issue.

so sucky

anyways!!

i realised i LOVE the hsm3 soundtrack

THANKS QIANYI!

FOR LENDING ME THE CD!

AND DVD!:D

the songs i love MOST

are

*RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!

its so meaningful and very sweet.

*CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE!!!

its beautiful.

*JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU!

also another lovely song.

the rest like A NIGHT TO REMEMBER and I WANT IT ALL are also very good

ahh well

go take a listen!

u will agree with me!

okay i shall go now

bye!

2008-11-17T22:56:00.003+08:00

hmmm

havent been doing much.

friday was last day of school.

it was okay. not too bad..

then after that we had cip.

AHH CIP WAS SO RELAXING!

for once.

cos they dun need students to do shelving so cass and i did

PHOTOCOPYING and CUTTING of fliers

about signing up for free sms alert service for the lib!

we did like 500 fliers..

nono

500 pieces of a4 paper with 3 fliers on each

so yeah SO MANY

then we gave them to qianyi and sinbing to give out.

it was nice...

well

we shall see how things go

shall go sleep.

2008-11-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

wow.

just finished camp.

it was great.

absolutely.

my goodness it was so special.

made me high.

i felt more at peace.

i felt touched.

and i feel refreshed

and

loved.

singing and all that shedding was such a relief.

clara and i had another experience.

or encounter.

whatever.

but after what crystal told me.

im beginning to see things in new light.

i feel different.

like every angle is a new thought.

i dont quite know how to put this in words but...

okay maybe im too tired.

when i sleep then i can express myself better tomoro.

i shall continue writing my journal then

oh and thanks for the warm fuzzies.

very sweet.

i think it was a damn good idea to have warm fuzzies.

really gives one the warm fuzzy feeling.

this camp really reached out to us and pulled us out of

our comfort zone as they put it.

it true. okay im running outta words to describe.

this is irritating.

shall go and sleep.

will get this done tomoro.

done in a better way.

2008-11-01T10:51:00.003+08:00

ugh u noe the funny thing is i kinda lost interest in posting.

but i sorta still feel like it.

so weird.

anyways i feel so stifled and like irritated

but i cant express why and stuff and it gets worse and worse

so know i noe how it feels like to want to say something but

totally cant express it in words.

but now its like paragraphs and pages long. not just one word or something.

ARRGGHH

that was an understated scream.

see i cant even scream out anymore.

this sucks

REAL BAD.

i had enough of being like this.

i am gonna indulge now.

in doing every single thing i want.

not doing the stuff i need to do.

well anyways just to update.

ytd i did cip

2nd time at amk lib.

hmmm kinda lost energy after the first session last wk.

ytd was tiring.

dunno why.

maybe cos hungry and mentally tired.

everyone was.

so so draining....

haha

but we talked alot. and shushed each other alot too.

how stupid. but yeah.

and then we took AGES to finish our TRUCK as jerlyn terms it.

gosh and its not numbers. its LETTERS and qianyi and i still took so long to shelve.

haiyo...

and i was so tired of standing

we sat down to shelfread.

how lazy but it was comfortable and most importantly!

the shelves were NEAT.

at least some only

well okay fine.

QUITE A FEW

and now im pissed with gossip girl.

i cant watch the show

and the lib has limited books

and not in order

and i have to rent

and i cant rent too many at one go or i'll be broke

cos the amt is RIDICULOUS

and i only get back more money when i return.

ugh so BLOODY SICKENING.

again another thing that sucks.

but nvm i will try and tolerate. im doing fine now.

BETTER GO DO SOMETHING CONSTRUCTIVE.

like practising

like cutting

like keeping

like organizing

like reading

like watching dvd or tv

whatever.

i feel damn weird today.

its over.

2008-10-13T12:10:00.003+08:00

wow.

exams are finally over.

yes i know i am kinda late in OFFICIALLY announcing it here.

okay but anyways.

at least i went out to celebrate with qianyi and celeste.

sadly sinbing and clara could not make it):

well but i'm sure we will have other opportunities without me if my results arent good.

and we'll find out tomoro:/

yay.

that day we went to watch house bunny at orchard and we walked and window shopped and bought some stuff and had an ex lunch.

its called a RARE INDULGENCE.

nevermind, we shant do so again[:

that was tuesday after chinese

then wednesday, took a break at home

hmm thursday we had the reflection.

it was good.

very relevant and really inspiring and stuff

yeah if only we had the proper like really long healing session like maybe a day long.

ours was just some parts.. but well it still worked.

i'm glad we had that session.

was not bad at all.

haha.

so that was thursday.

then friday.

games carnival!

hmm played captain's ball with felicia, amanda, peiying, clara,celeste,maria and tricia.

it was fun.

even though we didnt win

it didnt matter.

we discovered loads of stuff.

and i must say

PEIYING IS DAMN GOOD.

haha so are the rest of the team!

good Chemistry and stuff.

then tricia and i went for cip after that.

it was havoc cos we were confused

they flashed on the screen in school that it was at raffles place

but when we signed up we saw doby ghaut

yes yes how messy

so in the end we took our time

oh yeah cos it also said must report one hour before it started at 4

like WTH! we werent told that

and school ended so SO late.

yes so much for that

but we decided not to rush so much lah.

its not our fault really.

so we went to doby ghaut and looked around.

couldnt find it then obviously must be at raffles.

THANK GOODNESS WE FOUND IT when we got out of the gantry.

and one of the SMU students approached us.

looked like an old stnick's girl.

and as we found out later.

SHE WAS!

haha can totally tell by the look. or whatever. the essence?

anyways we worked fast and hard.

its called PROJECT KLOE

Keep Left On Escalators

so we gave out pamphlets with post its and handphone charms.

and also encourage ppl to like pledge their support by writing a msg and stick on the board.

quite cool

very fun.

and we met 2 sec ones

and stuff.

they are dance girls.

felicia's juniors....

ooh!

and we went to eat.

or rather tricia just accompanied me.

then after that we went to PS.

to meet our parents so we walked around a bit.

looking at

SHOES.

gosh!

haha

well anyways had loads of fun. was so dead beat

and i didnt realise how BLOODY RED my cheeks were

until i went home and looked at myself PROPERLY.

goodness me.

worse than my blusher.

well now,

doing nothing at home.

NO SCHOOL!!!

dun wanna face tomoro...

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

2008-08-29T22:53:00.004+08:00

i am officially gonna leave the computer for a while and concentrate on EOYS first.

i know exactly what i want.

i have sorted out my thinking

i want to be happy.

so in order for that,

i have to be really really focused

study super real hard,

and be extremely disciplined.

yeah thats what i'll do.

hmmm i must definitely do well

must must

ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO!

so that is why

i am here to say

bye[:

2008-08-18T21:21:00.005+08:00

i cant believe myself today.

sigh.....

first i missed the bus cause it was in front.

never mind..

i told myself nevermind...

its okay!

not my fault.

THEN

came along dear dear subway.

she was talking to me.

my back was turned.

check the watch:

still have bout 5mins before bus comes.

then,

i had this sudden instinct to turn around.

guess what i bloody saw?

hahahahaha

so fuuunny

NOT.

was

the

bus:D

stationary you think?

HAHAHA

i wonder what goes on in that pathetic excuse of a brain you call that empty shell

resting on top of your neck.

(hehe sorry it isnt really true but i love the expression!)

HOW ingenious!

total slacker day it is!

as UsUaL.... MONDAYS

i dont know if this is monday blues or not?

ahh i guess not

cause i am rather happy.

only one thing i am upset about

but it isnt important!

OKAY FREAKING SHIT IT IS.

but i have to work on it and being here does not help in the least bit.

the weather is also HELPING oh so much.

argh

ARRRGGHHH

aaahhhhhhhrrrrrgghhh

i need a pillow!

badly.

(yeah right cos i am too poor to afford something to rest my head on?)

and i suggest you

close your ears.

....

.......

wait thats impossible.

oops.

so wear some earplugs.

[:muahaha

stupid air inside!

AAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH

what is wrong with me?!!?!?

so super random.

ugh cant stand it!

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

2008-08-16T10:42:00.003+08:00

I HAVE TO OFFICIALLY DECLARE THIS:

ENG LE TIAN IS MY LIFESAVER!!!!!

haha!!

thank you le tian!!!

my dear table partner!!!

LOVE HER!!!<3

2008-08-06T17:15:00.003+08:00

i forgot something

okay maybe not forgot but

decided to add in somemore stuff:D

i cant understand why my stupid knee hurts!

the bones..the joint!

AARRGGHH!!!

its like laomaobingfazuo

so irritating

when i straighten, it hurts, and its like i dun even know what caused it.

its impairing my ability to walk.....

argh i think i need crutches.

coupled with that, my left leg is having pins and needles

cos i sat in a wrong position on the floor..

oww.....

as if i haven had a day that's bad enough

AND!

i think i am sick.

as in SICK in the HEAD.

i think i have some disorder.

like i am having rapid moodswings.

things just got better after i ate food during recess.

i was amazed at how i got over the 2 issues so fast.

then i was doing the stars* when i received something.

then i zoomed down again...

lessons started...

one by one

they threw us so many of *THOSE* back.

sickening!

it was like repeated torture.

i recover during the break and then i am back in the fire.

ARGH

luckily after recess it wasnt that bad.

or who knows what i might have done?!?!

i had an analogy but i suddenly forgot!

DAMN IT......

....

...

OH!!!!!!

I REMEMBER!!

it is sth like,

my phone?

ah yes.

i have reached my limit.

so after next monday then i can start sms again.

funny how i dun feel handicapped, and yet i sorta do.

but ahh anyways. when i have so many free sms, i dont get sms.

when i cant respond, i get millions.

wat is this!?!?

LIFE strikes AGAIN.

yeah and one thing is,

i am freaked out.

i am scared of my mind.

everyone should be scared of their own.

cos it is so powerful, such that it rules your heart.

it affects your whole being.

all depending on what you are thinking and

what you CHOOSE to think about.

it is very scary.

i was starting to feel better. telling myself to stop being so down and stuff

cos it was irritating!

then magically,

the brain started becoming more positive.

as in

it was occupied with other stuff and forgot bout the yucky stuff.

so,

my advice is:

try and think of stuff that you look forward to and you will naturally feel a slight change in mood.

it is very slow and gradual

but it is a significant change.

:D that is all that matters.

gosh i think lameo shitto and i,

can REALLY consider becoming psychiatrists.

we can READ people like a bloody book!

GOODNESS!!!

i think that is enough for today.

i mean, its my 3RD POST?!

if you are a PRO, you will read these signs.

THE GIRL HAS OFFICIALY LOST IT.

DEDICATION!

2008-08-06T15:44:00.004+08:00

oh yes i forgot this important thing!

To Subin:

HEY!

I know its kinda unlucky but well,

it will never plague you again.

so thank goodness you get rid of it now!

when you are still young!

haha

well occupy yourself with other stuff.

relax!

then it wont hurt.

this is the time to sit back

slack

and catch up on sleep

and relax ur mind!!

sorry i cant visit you.

i have other prior commitments...

i am so sorry.

but they have sent my well wishes!!

so yeah hope u received them.

GET WELL SOON SUBIN!!!

and come back quickly!!!

missyaloads!

2008-08-06T15:32:00.003+08:00

i am so disappointed.

this has been a rough rollercoaster ride.

and i HATE IT..

i never really liked rollercoasters though.

i realised something.

exercise really is good.

i mean everyone says so but i really realised the other goodness of it.

i makes u feel better.

really!!!

hmm its a healthy option to cheering yourself up.

obviously there is the horrible part whereby you drag youself to do it.

but when its over, the feeling's good!

GREAT!

i must admit.[:

oh yeah and today

it sucks totally

horrid day.

you don't wanna know why

though i shld be happy.

slightly

i am not.

well forget it

i need to go pamper myself

cos if not,

i will absolutely

LOSE IT.

she laughs, she cries, she's joker.

2008-08-04T22:39:00.004+08:00

this is official crap.
first is the BIG F.
not bad word dun worry.
but bad enough to kill me.
itS like a bloody plague.
out to get me.
thinks its funny
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

REALLY?
i don't THINK so
so shut the heck up.

why doesnt it just leave me alone.
what i have seen tonight further illustrates the issue.
addresses the concern.
mine.
i finally understand what is the problem.
i am too easily influenced.
i was influenced by what she said.
it affected a small thing which ballooned and now
has become a part of the big pie
which is disgusting
it sucks.
nothing
NOTHING.

I have had enough.
what.......?
do..?
is.....?
are.......?
i am sick and tired.
i really wanna go.
go
go
go
...
...
...
...

no point saying anymore or whatever
makes no use
i shld just shut the freakin' hell up
just SHUT UP
SHUT UP
SHUT UP
SHUT UP.

i cant believe this.
i hate this.
i don't understand this.
i cant stand it.

I

HAD

ENOUGH.

2008-08-01T20:33:00.003+08:00

okay this really sucks

i suddenly feel so irritated even though it is supposed to be alright.

i mean who gives you the right to be like this?

it isnt fair.

shit.

damn it.

its a repeat of last year.

and sadly,

i don't really fancy it if you ask me.

..........

one more thing.

what the hell are phones for?

i want to say more but i cant.

wow.

thanks

really.

how great is this.

DAMN IT.

it has been ages.

2008-07-29T22:28:00.004+08:00

oops, i haven been here for very long

and i missed out so much.

life's like this:

when u keep seeing something or looking for something,

u will not see it or find it.

but when u least expect,

u will see it or find it.

it will turn up in front of u.

gosh so many things have happened.

new names

class stuff

ooh indian dance

hmm...

oh yes!

choir farewell!!!!

oops i am kinda really backdated...

argh didnt take pics.

all in BO's camera!

shall get it from her...

sigh this is such a complicated life..

oh yeah had CIP today at Ju Eng Home.

not bad...

haha so sad didnt take pics

totally forgot.

ah anyways...

i am really sick and tired of all these thinking that i am doing and it just irks me to have to think so hard, use so much brain juice and kill so many cells.

as if i am not stupid enough.

i should just stop worrying about EVERYTHING

take life easy

go with the flow

chill

EASIER SAID THAN DONE

damn it.

pictures

2008-07-07T09:55:00.003+08:00

   OOOH LOOK AT THEM!
   ooh la la
   ooh i love this pic!!!! so pretty!!!
   DON'T MESS WITH THE BOND GIRLS
   AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODELS

ANASTACIA LYRICS

2008-07-07T09:31:00.003+08:00

Tile :Donna Lewis - At The Beginning

This is lyrics from www.lyrics007.com

We were strangers, starting out on a journey

Never dreaming, what we’d have to go through

Now here we are, I’m suddenly standing

At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you

Unexpected, what you did to my heart

When I lost hope, you were there to remind me

This is the start

And life is a road that I wanna keep going

Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing

Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey

I’ll be there when the world stops turning

I’ll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure

Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true

Now here we stand, unafraid of the future

At the beginning with you

And life is a road that I wanna keep going

Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing

Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey

I’ll be there when the world stops turning

I’ll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody, somewhere

A new love in the dark

Now I know my dream will live on

I’ve been waiting so long

Nothing’s gonna tear us apart

And life is a road that I wanna keep going

Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing

Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey

I’ll be there when the world stops turning

I’ll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

Yeah

Life is a road that I wanna keep going on

Love is a river, I wanna keep going

Starting out on a journey

Life is a road that I wanna keep going

Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

IM A FAILURE!!!

2008-07-07T09:07:00.003+08:00

okay

ive done it.

ive totally spoilt jerlyn's work.

yeah go ahead.

shoot!

i really dun understand why it goes against me!

i cant do anything proper!

its so irritating!!!

AAAAARRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ooh wait!

my jam tastes good!

its like NO PRESERVATIVES OR ARTIFICIAL FLAVOURING.

i mean LOOK! A RASPBERRY!

yeah i know HARRODS is also like this but, somehow

its more sour or sweet...

THIS ONE is super NATURAL!

gosh i feel so healthy!

btw its french!

HAHA

BON APPETIT!

okay i was sorting out my alumni pics ytd.

should i load some?

hmmm maybe NOT.[[[:

haha.

i realised 2 things....

nono, make that 3.

okay here goes!

1. i am fat! SHIT DAMN IT!

2. i look nice in mirror photos.DUH! bcos i look nicer in mirrors basically.

at least nicer than what u all are lookin at.

as in u noe when u look at me direct. it sucks!

*GASPS. I CANT BELIEVE I JUST SAID THAT!*EEKS!!!

sorry i was having a blonde moment.hahahahaha.

OH JUST SHUT UP!!!!

movin on.....

3. i am quite a good photographer!

i can actually take mirror photos proper

like its just right not too high or low.

the ppl can fit in perfectly! and look good!

HAHAHA!

i am SO takin mirror photos from now on.

ooh there's this yellow black tiny bird in my garden now.

so cute!

its lyk pecking at my windmills.

WAIT A MINUTE.

ohno..

this is not good!

argh my windmill's gonna fall apart!!!!

stop it!!!!!!

2008-07-05T10:06:00.005+08:00

its been a looong time

busy busy busy

but for erina's sake

im here!!!

cos she needs to know

gossip!

okay not really but,

lets see what has happened...

the alumni dinner.

it was high profile event

cheongsams were the rage!

no lah it was the dress code

puhlease it was grand!!

they were all so taitai-ish

and lyk there were auctions

and pledge cards and

sales and

wines

and peanuts.

yes peanuts

not canapees.

haha

it ended so late cos we were behind schedule

lucky can report at 8.30

wanna know who approached youknowwho to request that?

*smiles*

anyways it was fun

yeah

i always love performances!

only the next day its like hangover or sth

feel so horrid!

its ALWAYS lyk this.

damn it!

but it was fun anyways.

my eyes were disgusting

i realise im lousy at doing smokey effect.

i need to go learn or sth.

haha

ooh we took lots of pics.

it was fun cos practically everyone was there!

councilors and ahh all my class people!

yay!

we just kept singing and acting glam

cause we WERE!

haha

okay now i need to go finish all my stuff.

you wouldnt wanna look at my to do list.

it SUCKS!

BIG time.

argh

so many things to buy.

urgh i hate it! when so many things are left undone.

what am i still doing here?!?!??!

replies!!

2008-06-16T14:57:00.005+08:00

HELLO!

sorry but i was away so didnt reply tags or update.

but im doing it now!

amandalee: hello! haha thanks! yep, i know who you are. how did u find me?[:

ros: hi! yes! u got the right person! uhh im not sc. im asc. yeah dun get it wrong! haha.

jerlyn: haha. yeah!

okay the rest are replied at the respective blogs!

oh hmmm my holiday...

it was fun!

i met my friend from last year's trip!

yeah we played games and stuff. quite cool!

and i met someone from school!

haha oh yes!

sunday was fun!

we ate so much at the bbq!!

whoo hoo!!

yum! played in the pool!

bo got wet. lyk really wet!

ahhh so funny. we were splashing and imagining

that we were having a FOOT spa.

the one with the fishes nibbling at your dead skin.

haha!!

oooh we had lots of leftover.

ahh i shall go off!

need to study

school repoening soon!!!

mixed feelings....

the random girl!

2008-06-05T08:37:00.004+08:00

today is thursday.

it is THEE DAY!

omg omgomg

so many things gonna happen.

i am so gonna die!!!!

arrrggghhh

oh no, im kinda tired, dun wanna go choir......

haha who am i kidding?

well i shant talk bout it!

SSSSHHHHH!

oh yeah one thing is i need to do alot of administrative stuff on my blog today.

sigh and i hate it when people dun reply smses!

i mean dont they switch off the phone in the night then they'll see the msg!?!!??

argh what if its really important!!!!

okay! HA! that felt better.

ahh gonna meet them for lunchy!

YAY! we're gonnna do something BAD.

real

bad.

can u imagine me?

okay this wasnt my idea.

alright fine, maybe part of it was.

AAHHHH WHATEVER. WISH ME LUCK.

i hope we succeed!

oh yes.

im pissed with myself.

cos i am SO not disciplined to finish my homework.

so pissed that you know what?

im gonna ditch everything and do it NOW.

after i finish my breakfast. haha

it is all SUBMARINE's fault that chai called me *****.

it isnt a bad word dun worry![:

but anyways its ALL her fault!

if she didnt make me act, i wouldnt have been practising it until now.

its kinda stuck in me.

so its all her fault its stuck in me and mandachai called me *****

ARRRGGHH

i will kill her at lunch today.

watch out submarine.

you are so dead BO!

holidays/jubilate

2008-06-01T22:36:00.003+08:00

OMG

i am so so sorry!!!!

TOO BUSY studying for this term.

so bloody hectic!

okay time to reply tags

JIAMEI: sorry!!!sorry!!!! i will and dont be so demanding lah! stil want so many smileys.

SARAH: oh my thanks rah! u actually tag! for once! yay so i shall blog to repay u! im stil pissed at you! haha u see ur blog!

DENISE:yes yes i noe. thanks i shall post now!!!!i mean i AM. ahhh whatever. haha thanks for the rose!

PADI:ur prezzie was cute! thats final!

JERLYN: yes yes yes! glad u lyk the surprise! thats good.

JUBILATE V!!!!

OH GOODNESS

gracious!

so many flowers!

so pretty!!!

thanks to all who gave me flowers and sweets and cookies!

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

and everyone else!!

took so many pics, so i cant put all here

shant put any.

im tired of FINDING IT

so messy its all over my com!

anyways, it was quite successful

i think?

kinda sad its over......sob

im always emotional when we sing JUBILATE DEO

even last year also.

i hate the endings of happy occasions

but they cant last forever...

sigh

shit.

now is so stressful

cos of THAT thing.

ugh i wanna hurry get over and done with it!

i shall go watch my jubilate photo slideshow

YAY!

im kinda unstable now.

absolutely CANT STAND IT

ugh

having a blonde moment.

IM NOT EVEN BLONDE

i think im drunk......

bleah!

shall go sleep

will post more often now that

i know people actually care bout the life of this blog.

once again,

THANKS TO ALL WHO GAVE ME STUFF ON JUBILATE.

EVEN HUGS ARE COUNTED! haha

i love submarine, lehlin, jaybird,darling, glamgirl, big sis and sharlyn!

u guys were so cute when u met me at the entrance!

i will nvr forget that

special thanks to the lovely

Denise!

for the beautiful rose!

its so lovely!! thanks!*hugs!!!!!!!*

and of course!

Trish!

for the fantabulous bouquet!

you really surprised me!

so sweet! thankyou!!so much!!!*hugs*squeeze!*

and not forgetting

Jerbert!

for helping with the flowers and all the stuff!!

you are great! awesome!!!*hugs!!!!!!*

I LOVE EVERYONE I KNOW!!!!!

MUAX!!!!!![:

vvv

2008-04-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

OKAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!

I AM 14!

MY GOODNESS!!!!!

okay its either my com has a prob or i just really didnt receive any birthday tags. this place seriously needs a REVIVAL.

uhhh its belated cos 14 april was the day i turned 14.

whoo hoo!!!!

anyways i wanna thank my class

and every single person who wished me happy birthday!

lyk my LOVELY DARLINGS!

except for ONE OF THEM WHO FORGOT!!!

even though she talked to me the whole bloody day

as if it was a normal day!!! GOSH, 'babe'!!!

aiya....

I SHANT MENTION NAMES!!!

urgh

but she did write a long msg in the class card.

and apologised for not singing a song.

ahh never minds.

i cannot keep lingering on these stuff.

okay so yeah where was i?

...

......

OH YEAH!!!

loved the lovely lovely lovely and cute PIGLET!!!

from the ROSYTH people!!!

JANE!JERLYN!CASSANDRA!ERINA!FELICIA!

aaaaahhhhhhh:D:D:D

thanks so much girls!!!!

and not forgetting traitor for the highlighter!!

never break tradition eh?

and uhh....PADI!!!!

tks for the CREATIVE card and feather pen!!

so COOL!!!:D

handmade and so personal!!!

ehh oh yes!!PEIYING!!!

tks for the cookies!!! so yummy!!

and yeah, i know i'm a DIVA!;)

hmm oh yes!!!

dear clara and qianyi!!

Thanks!!!

so sweet!!!

love my 'blang blang'!!!![:

like TOTALLY.....ahem ahem

uhh OH YES!!! YES YES YES!!!

my lovely LOVELY SENIORS!!!!!

SUBIN AND LEHLIN!!!!!

'LEHBIN'!!!

im so touched....sobs

thanks a lot (:

love the card too!!!

love the hair.

so cute right? I KNOW!:D:D:D

OH YEAH!!!!

DEAR DEAR NIENPING!BOON!SARAH!

oh gosh the darlings

thought they forgot.

sigh what a surprise.

REAL SWEET.[:[:[:

absolutely LOVE THE GIFT!!! AHHHH!!!!

thanks to you guys and sijia and alicia!!

YEAH!

DENISE AND XUESHI!!!

you two!

thanks so much.[:

i love it!!

very very personal!

awww.....

shit im getting emotional!

moving on...

MERE!!!!!!

thanks!!!!! so much!!!

i was so surprised! lyk wow OMG!!

you must have heard me telling them!

WOW!:):):)

love it! so so so CUTE!

oh yes!!

YUTING!!!!

omg thanks for the turtle!

so cute!

and.. finally!

STACEY!!!!!

thanks for the punching carlsberg!

i love it! totally!

and the lovely card too!:D:D:D:D

ok hope i didnt leave anyone out!

must say so if i did leave you out!

sigh long tiring day

loads of things happened

but i shall say more tomorrow

gtg study enzymes and peristalsis!

argh! apologies!

2008-04-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

SHIT SRY EVERYONE WHO TAGGED

i feel so guilty

i havent been here for ages

i feel so bad!

haha nvm i shall reply tags here

sorry!

ERINA: i am SO NOT SICK[: [: [: ha!

JIAMEI: who matchmade with who? u mean MY cousin and VAL?!?! omg nvr invite me to their wedding! i wanna be bridesmaid!! :( sob! and YOU! always give me the 'evil glare' and poke me. i shall give you the 'EVIL EYE'!

JANE:hello welcome here, newcomer. of cos ur name gets a smiley!here goes another-(:

VIC: hey! it was great. pity we missed you!!!

okay okay job done

loads of things happen

espc changing of sections

stupid me

had good warm ups that day THATS why

or i'll nvr sing that high

stupid me

stupid stupid

NOW jerbert, the traitor went to alto2

sigh we both betrayed each other.

ahh whatever!

lets see how it'll turn out lah.

hope for the best!

got so much more to say but yet i am restricted by---aiya i dunno how to put it in words

i shall go sleep.

stupid nose

running lyk a water hose

there isnt even a fire here!

its easter!!!!!!

2008-03-23T16:56:00.004+08:00

hello

okay shit. im not supposed to be here but,

i cant stand it!

i've had a really bad day

well not throughout but anyways!!!!

first, i woke up with a bad stomach,

nearly puked. thank goodness i didnt!!!

i was controlling so hard!!!

and had diahorrea!!!

urgh!

so bloody irritating.

stomach hurt, but once i engaged myself in activities, i felt better!

okay i dragged myself to church today....

helped out in the body art. with the llamas cos alex's mum organised!

vic was supposed to help out too but SHE DID NOT!!!

argh was quite fun tho.... i painted butterflies and A DISTORTED flower..

so sorry to that girl! ahh well i was in a weird position couldnt get the petals right! haha[:

but cabby did the LOVELY LOLLIE!!!!! and the sweet flower for me!!! YAY!!

sigh the llamas did some rainbow coming out from a cauldron painting on their right cheek!

quite cute...

ahh aft that went for mass then ate the nice macroni

then went to help mum and dad with ice cream!!!

surprisingly it was hard work! so bleeding hard the stupid ice cream!

but i could do it! HA!

okay just now i was browsing and i found this which is kinda sick but cute?

uhhh okay mayb not cute but i would say DEFINITELY CREATIVE!!!!

lets see....

its this stupid name decoder thingy. and the theme is SEXY?!?

oh gosh let me warn you. this is at reader's discretion. not meant to be offensive

altho mine's the WORST!!!!!!

v.a.n.e.s.s.a

Vixen Adeptly Needing Erotic Stimulation and Sensual Affection.

good heavens, talk about SICK.

hmmm how bout my fellow loyal taggers?!

j.e.r.l.y.n

Jewel Exchanging Rapturous Loving and Yummy Necking.

please dun kill me!

a.m.a.n.d.a

Amorous Minx Administering Naughty Delights and Affection

c.h.a.i

Cutie Hungering for Arousing Indulgence

oooh!hahahaha

c.l.a.r.a

Cutie Luxuriating in Arousing Rapturous Affection

hey hey quite similar to chai!

okay now my girls!!

c.e.l.e.s.t.e

Charming Exciting Lover Exchanging Sensual Touches and Embraces

ooh la la!

t.r.i.c.i.a

Temptress Readily Imparting Caresses and Intense Affection

please dont faint!

b.l.e.n.d.a

Babe Lovingly Exchanging Naughty Delights and Affection

hey! its getting repetitive! ai yo!

d.e.n.i.s.e

Dame Exchanging Naughty, Intense, Sensual Embraces

sigh lets try more people!!!

s.t.a.c.e.y

Sexy Temptress Administering Caresses and Erotic Yeses

hey! hey! the only sexy one!!!

m.a.r.i.a

Minx Administering Rapturous Intense Affection

oh gosh its boring the hell outta me! or mayb

U may be interested cos u wanna noe what UR name says!

AHH WHATEVER! stupid thingy and to think i actually thought it was creative.-_-

!!!!!!!!!

so much for creativity,huh.

so after all i am just a stupid VIXEN

oh what the frickin hell.

seriously, U tell me which one is the worst.

.....

gosh why me, why me, why me!!!!

EEEEEEEEWWWWW!!!!!!!

I AM SO OUTTA HERE!

*glitz* and *glamour*

2010!

christmas

recent happenings!

a while later

SEC3CAMP09

SYF 09

hanging in there

Free-IQTest.net

covenant ritual

CCA FAIR and Olevel dreams!

first day of school

HAPPY NEW YEAR

merry christmas

REALITY BITES

BACK FROM BRATISLAVA

its over.

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

DEDICATION!

she laughs, she cries, she's joker.

it has been ages.

pictures

ANASTACIA LYRICS

IM A FAILURE!!!

replies!!

the random girl!

holidays/jubilate

argh! apologies!

its easter!!!!!!

glitz and glamour