you think i am not enjoying myself there.
in fact i am
but not totally
why?
because i have something others dont.
i have a fear
a nagging fear that is becoming part of the growing excess baggage in my heart.
the baggage just keeps increasing.
i dont know how to get rid of it.
people can do whatever they want.
but i cant.
why?
what's wrong?
i know there are others worse off.
but if this is already shit,
i have simply no idea how the rest cope.
i know i'm not what you wished for.
but i'm not what i wished for either.
i am so so damn bloody tired.
i wish i was frozen in time.
forever 7, or 10.
this is
i dont know..
SHIT ME.