i am officially gonna leave the computer for a while and concentrate on EOYS first. i know exactly what i want.
i have sorted out my thinking
i want to be happy.
so in order for that,
i have to be really really focused
study super real hard,
and be extremely disciplined.
yeah thats what i'll do.
hmmm i must definitely do well
must must
ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO!
so that is why
i am here to say
bye[:
i cant believe myself today.sigh.....
first i missed the bus cause it was in front.
never mind..
i told myself nevermind...
its okay!
not my fault.
THEN
came along dear dear subway.
she was talking to me.
my back was turned.
check the watch:
still have bout 5mins before bus comes.
then,
i had this sudden instinct to turn around.
guess what i bloody saw?
hahahahaha
so fuuunny
NOT.
it
was
the
bus:D
stationary you think?
HAHAHA
i wonder what goes on in that pathetic excuse of a brain you call that empty shell
resting on top of your neck.
(hehe sorry it isnt really true but i love the expression!)
HOW ingenious!
total slacker day it is!
as UsUaL.... MONDAYS
i dont know if this is monday blues or not?
ahh i guess not
cause i am rather happy.
only one thing i am upset about
but it isnt important!
OKAY FREAKING SHIT IT IS.
but i have to work on it and being here does not help in the least bit.
the weather is also HELPING oh so much.
argh
ARRRGGHHH
aaahhhhhhhrrrrrgghhh
i need a pillow!
badly.
(yeah right cos i am too poor to afford something to rest my head on?)
and i suggest you
close your ears.
....
.......
wait thats impossible.
oops.
so wear some earplugs.
[:muahaha
stupid air inside!
AAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH
what is wrong with me?!!?!?
so super random.
ugh cant stand it!
I HAVE TO OFFICIALLY DECLARE THIS:
ENG LE TIAN IS MY LIFESAVER!!!!!
haha!!
thank you le tian!!!
my dear table partner!!!
LOVE HER!!!<3
i forgot somethingokay maybe not forgot but
decided to add in somemore stuff:D
i cant understand why my stupid knee hurts!
the bones..the joint!
AARRGGHH!!!
its like laomaobingfazuo
so irritating
when i straighten, it hurts, and its like i dun even know what caused it.
its impairing my ability to walk.....
argh i think i need crutches.
coupled with that, my left leg is having pins and needles
cos i sat in a wrong position on the floor..
oww.....
as if i haven had a day that's bad enough
AND!
i think i am sick.
as in SICK in the HEAD.
i think i have some disorder.
like i am having rapid moodswings.
things just got better after i ate food during recess.
i was amazed at how i got over the 2 issues so fast.
then i was doing the stars* when i received something.
then i zoomed down again...
lessons started...
one by one
they threw us so many of *THOSE* back.
sickening!
it was like repeated torture.
i recover during the break and then i am back in the fire.
ARGH
luckily after recess it wasnt that bad.
or who knows what i might have done?!?!
i had an analogy but i suddenly forgot!
DAMN IT......
....
...
OH!!!!!!
I REMEMBER!!
it is sth like,
my phone?
ah yes.
i have reached my limit.
so after next monday then i can start sms again.
funny how i dun feel handicapped, and yet i sorta do.
but ahh anyways. when i have so many free sms, i dont get sms.
when i cant respond, i get millions.
wat is this!?!?
LIFE strikes AGAIN.
yeah and one thing is,
i am freaked out.
i am scared of my mind.
everyone should be scared of their own.
cos it is so powerful, such that it rules your heart.
it affects your whole being.
all depending on what you are thinking and
what you CHOOSE to think about.
it is very scary.
i was starting to feel better. telling myself to stop being so down and stuff
cos it was irritating!
then magically,
the brain started becoming more positive.
as in
it was occupied with other stuff and forgot bout the yucky stuff.
so,
my advice is:
try and think of stuff that you look forward to and you will naturally feel a slight change in mood.
it is very slow and gradual
but it is a significant change.
:D that is all that matters.
gosh i think lameo shitto and i,
can REALLY consider becoming psychiatrists.
we can READ people like a bloody book!
GOODNESS!!!
i think that is enough for today.
i mean, its my 3RD POST?!
if you are a PRO, you will read these signs.
THE GIRL HAS OFFICIALY LOST IT.
5:15 PM
oh yes i forgot this important thing!
To Subin:
HEY!
I know its kinda unlucky but well,
it will never plague you again.
so thank goodness you get rid of it now!
when you are still young!
haha
well occupy yourself with other stuff.
relax!
then it wont hurt.
:D
this is the time to sit back
slack
and catch up on sleep
and relax ur mind!!
sorry i cant visit you.
i have other prior commitments...
]:
i am so sorry.
but they have sent my well wishes!!
so yeah hope u received them.
GET WELL SOON SUBIN!!!
and come back quickly!!!
missyaloads!
3:44 PM
i am so disappointed.
this has been a rough rollercoaster ride.
and i HATE IT..
i never really liked rollercoasters though.
i realised something.
exercise really is good.
i mean everyone says so but i really realised the other goodness of it.
i makes u feel better.
really!!!
hmm its a healthy option to cheering yourself up.
obviously there is the horrible part whereby you drag youself to do it.
but when its over, the feeling's good!
GREAT!
i must admit.[:
oh yeah and today
it sucks totally
horrid day.
you don't wanna know why
though i shld be happy.
slightly
i am not.
well forget it
i need to go pamper myself
cos if not,
i will absolutely
LOSE IT.
okay this really sucksi suddenly feel so irritated even though it is supposed to be alright.
i mean who gives you the right to be like this?
it isnt fair.
shit.
damn it.
its a repeat of last year.
and sadly,
i don't really fancy it if you ask me.
..........
one more thing.
what the hell are phones for?
i want to say more but i cant.
wow.
thanks
really.
how great is this.
DAMN IT.
